Happy New Year, 2017

I have not written for my blog in over two months.

I have not known what to say, or how to say it. “It” being a story too big to tell.

On October 29, 2016, I had a phone call no mother ever wants to get:

Your son is in ICU, he had ___________ surgery, he is stable, etc. etc. etc.

I almost lost my eldest son to a bicycle accident. He was riding home from work on a Saturday afternoon. He was zipping down a hill. He was going too fast. He was preoccupied. He had the coming evening’s events on his mind. He had coffee in one hand. He had an earbud in one ear listening to music. He ran a stop sign. He rode at an estimated 30 miles per hour into the passenger side rear window of an SUV.

My life has been anything but normal since that fated day.

I flew to and lived in Boulder Colorado for two months. I became a nurse, cook, wound care specialist, chauffeur, coach, and more…

I did what any mother would do. I tried my best to do whatever needed to be done to help my son heal.

After a long hospital stay and countless appointments we were grateful to get the “all clear” to travel home for the Holiday’s.

Once home, we hibernated as a family. Ate nutritious meals. Played games. Slept often and late. Enjoyed nature. Laughed. Talked and told stories. Worked on puzzles.

The event created waves of change in our family, in life, and in my fledgling newly hatched business.

You might have noticed, I closed my Silly Girl Factory Etsy Shop. The shop I had opened for business in October 2016 was and is now closed. I stopped making new projects. I stopped writing. I stopped drawing. I stopped painting. I stopped regular life. Instead, I focused on him.

I did whatever I could to bring him to health and healing. Our hours, days, and schedules became completely intertwined. All for him.

As he gained some independence, I tried to move forward in my life as well.

After a while, I began going to few yoga classes. This was not an easy step forward. I was still to afraid to go into public because talking to strangers was too hard. How could I contain the hurt? How could I express the hurt? How could I act normal or be normal? Nothing was or is normal.

Not now. Not ever.

Slowly, I began to draw or create collages or write again, a little, each day. Allowing my work to feed me and ground me. I have so much hope for myself and my little business: Silly Girl Factory.

Self-Care Free, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

I have so much hope for his future and his “regular” life coming back to him.

His healing will take a year, maybe more, not less.

My healing might take longer than his. My spirit took a deep hit. I never wanted to see my child suffer, especially not so much.

I will continue to dive into making my art, my writing, my unique ways of expressing, and creating. I long to share.

Joy. Life. Love. Peace. Hope. Health. Silliness and fun!

I also know that my art will be a container for the hurt, the pain, and the expression of all I have inside that is too big to express.

Thank you for being a trusted reader. May your 2017 be filled with hope, love, peace, health, and everything else you desire. Now you know why the silence came so soon after the excitement of opening my Silly Girl Factory Etsy shop. I plan to re-open. When the time is right.

Happy New Year

Getting Interrupted

Have you ever though about what it means to get interrupted?

I interrupt myself far too often!

Stone Doodle. Paper, Ink. 7 x 5 inches.

Stone Doodle. Paper, Ink. 7 x 5 inches.

I keep wondering if I should blame the internet. Unfortunately, outside stuff is not the problem. I am my own problem. I interrupt myself regularly.

I’ll work on… this…

no this…

oh, how about this…

The problem seems to be getting worse, with no end date in sight.

I guess I’ll roll with it and see what happens, after I get interrupted… once again!

Rectangle Doodle Pattern. Paper, Ink. 8 x 5 inches.

Rectangle Doodle Pattern. Paper, Ink. 8 x 5 inches.

The only time I seem to not interrupt myself is when I am making art, drawing in particular. That’s when I am fully absorbed. I found an article that stresses the 10 words every girl should learn — I was interrupting myself at the time I found this article. The article stresses that women need to keep boundaries around being interrupted.

Not me, I just need to keep making art!

You do not need to read the article, here are the 10 most important words:

“Stop interrupting me,”

“I just said that,” and

“No explanation needed.”

Now, go back to work! Or buy some art! 😉

Potboiler

Hey there! It’s time for another vocabulary word!

Potboiler!

When I first saw this word it made me think of cooking lobster! However here is the actual meaning of potboiler:

a mediocre work of literature or art produced merely for financial gain

Yes, I do worry if my work is mediocre. That does not stop me from being a maker tho!

Dorky Doodle Octopus Head. Paper, Ink. 12 x 12  inches.

Dorky Doodle Octopus Head. Paper, Ink. 12 x 12 inches.

Can you think of an example of a mediocre work of literature or art produced merely for financial gain? If you can, let me know. Because in my world artists are always attempting to show their best work, not crap work.

Dorky Doodle Backbender. Paper, Ink. 6 x 6  inches.

Dorky Doodle Backbender. Paper, Ink. 6 x 6 inches.

Baby Records

I have always been an artist. How do I know?

Dorky Doodle Flower Girl. Paper, Ink. 7 x 5 inches.

Dorky Doodle Flower Girl. Paper, Ink. 7 x 5 inches.

My mom kept great records in my baby book.

Nursery School notes from teacher at 4 years old:

She has become much more social. Shows real adaptability to cutting, pasting, drawings, and art work in general.

Favorite types of play at 5 years old:

Always could amuse herself with crayons, paper, scissors, and glue. Enjoyed imaginative play with friends.

Seven Years old, Mom’s notes:

Could pick up a brush and paint for hours, until something was finished. complete immersion for her. Spent hours modeling with clay at ages 7 & 8.  We bought a chalk board at age 7 — for drawing, very good response.

Eight years old:

Started showing interest in sewing clothing for barbie.

I am sure it surprises no one that I haven’t changed! Most of all, my Mom!

Dorky Doodle Ruler. Paper, Ink. 8.5 x 5.5  inches.

Dorky Doodle Ruler. Paper, Ink. 8.5 x 5.5 inches.

 

Finally!

Hi there! I finally have new work to share on my website!

You see, the thing is, I’d rather be making the work than photographing and Photoshop-ing the images in preparation for sharing the work on-line. No more wait! My new work is here! Here now! Finally!

Schedule Wild Idea, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

Schedule Wild Idea, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

I know, I know — it’s been a whole year that you have waited! Jimmney Cricket a whole year!

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Opuscule

I love this word! Opuscule! It describes my new body of work to a “T”!

Opuscule

  1. a small or minor work
  2. a literary or musical work of small size

Reassemble is a series of work that would be considered diminutive in the fine art world. At only 4.75 x 4.75 these little paintings are quite small!

GO! make something beautiful, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

GO! make something beautiful, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

I do not see any reason to work bigger when the message and the meaning can come through on a smaller format. Do you?

fresh green, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

fresh green, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

I hope you consider a purchase of a piece or two or three… $35 each. Or you can just comment below and say: “Hey Suzanne, these are fun! and Silly too!”

Opuscule means: small work! Bonus, you learned a new word today!

Reading List

I set a goal of reading 50 books this year. I surpassed my goal. Sometimes we actually Do reach our New Years Resolutions! I am proud to share the list of books I read. A few of the books are not represented here because I could not find a good image.

If you are curious about any of these books, please ask, or you can go to my Goodreads account and search my ratings of each book.

Also, what is on your reading list? Do you have recommendations for me?

    • It's Never Too Late to Begin Again by Julia Cameron
    • Your Inner Will by Piero Ferrucci
    • The Monks and Me by Mary Paterson
    • Commonwealth by Ann Patchett
    • Warrior Goddess Training by HeatherAsh Amara
    • Glory over Everything by Kathleen Grissom
    • Coming Full Circle by Lynn V. Andrews
    • 30 Days- Change your habits, Change your life by Marc Reklau
    • Better Than Before by Gretchen Rubin
  • Peace Is Every Step by Thich Nhat Hanh
  • The Silent Passage by Gail Sheehy
  • Walden and Civil Disobedience by Henry David Thoreau
  • The Kitchen House by Kathleen Grissom
  • Sitting Still by Patricia Hart Clifford
  • It's Easier Than You Think by Sylvia Boorstein
  • Man's Search for Meaning by Viktor E. Frankl
  • American Gods by Neil Gaiman
  • Lilac Girls by Martha Hall Kelly
  • My Grandmother Asked Me to Tell You She's Sorry by Fredrik Backman
  • The Goddess Pose by Michelle Goldberg
  • The Sketchbook Project World Tour by Steven Peterman
  • The Winter of Our Disconnect by Susan Maushart
  • Spark Joy by Marie Kondō
  • Orange Is the New Black by Piper Kerman
  • Where'd You Go, Bernadette by Maria Semple
  • A Man Called Ove by Fredrik Backman
  • A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara
  • Good Morning, Beautiful Business by Judy Wicks
  • Mr. Churchill's Secretary by Susan Elia MacNeal
  • Girl Waits with Gun by Amy  Stewart
  • The Chakra System by Anodea Judith
  • Overcoming Trauma through Yoga by David Emerson
  • Rising Strong by Brené Brown
  • The Crossroads of Should and Must by Elle Luna
  • The Life We Bury by Allen Eskens
  • Come Rain or Come Shine by Jan Karon
  • Lost Teachings of Yoga, The by Georg Feuerstein
  • Coming Closer to Ourselves by Pema Chödrön
  • Revived by Sarah Noffke
  • Sparks of Divinity by B.K.S. Iyengar
  • Fierce Medicine by Ana T. Forrest
  • Yoga The Spirit And Practice Of Moving Into Stilln by Erich Schiffmann
  • Stunned by Sarah Noffke
  • The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali by Patañjali
  • Art Before Breakfast by Danny Gregory
  • The Gifts of Imperfection by Brené Brown
  • Awoken by Sarah Noffke
  • In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan
  • The Fire Starter Sessions by Danielle LaPorte

Creating “Containers”

Some of my best work has come from the idea of creating containers. I create arbitrary and also thought out “containers” from which to start a body of work. How can something be arbitrary and thought out? Allow me to explain. As a creative, I tend to have way too many ideas to actually execute in any given day, month, or year. So, I have learned how to create what I call, containers — arguably this could also be called parameters — but let’s stick with the image of a container!

Oblivion, Bright half of life, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

Oblivion, Bright half of life, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

Imagine a box. Now, put in the rules in the box. Magic happens in the container. Out the other side comes the art!

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The Daily Trend

The daily trend is a “thing.” Have you seen or run into these daily trends?

Do this for 30 days.
Do this for 100 days.
Do this for 365 days.
22 pushups for 22 days.
Start with one burpee and add one every day until you just can’t anymore… (I made this one up just now).
And so on…

As I navigate my way through hundreds of on-line groups, classes, and blogs one thing that strikes me is how often I see “daily challenges.” These challenges — the daily trend — are great, until they are not.

Explore Yes, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

Explore Yes, paper, pen, watercolor, 4.75” x 4.75”

I have joined a few daily challenges from time to time, for example this month’s #inktober. I have also created my own challenge, for example 222 Faces, which I did back in 2010. I have tried to do 222 faces again this year, but I am falling short of my own goal, check out my progress on Instagram.

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